Instructions for travel.
November 22, 2012 § 21 Comments
You will arrive wet and confused in a place too brightly lit, too cold.
But don’t worry, they’re waiting for you.
They will hold you and keep you warm.
You will discover the things I have packed for you as you need them: the good pair of hands, the strong legs, the mind that will throw questions back at me like winged darts.
I also tossed in waltz time and boogie woogie and two feet that’ll know just what to do, so enjoy.
You’ll remember this conversation for a while, but by the time you can speak the local language the memory will have grown thin. You may catch a glimpse of it, like a bird in flight, out of the corner of your eye—then something will distract you.
Where you are going there are many distractions.
You may stay right where I put you, rooted in place, or you may wander. What you do there is up to you. I won’t interfere.
You will be away for an indeterminate length of time—some return so quickly they are remembered there by no name but baby.
How long for you? I know, but for you it will be a surprise. Trust me, it works better that way.
I can’t say this journey will not be hard. Sometimes it will. And you’ll wonder, is all this travail necessary? The cancer, the bunions, the forgetfulness? I’m sorry, but it is. These conditions come with being perishable.
Life, in its quickness, will be more precious to you because it is not built to last. Hopefully, that will keep you alert, engaged. Forever is a sleepy place.
And because there are sorrows there are also joys; the dark reveals the light. You will know first love and true love. You will eat chocolate and pat dogs.
You will forget much but try to remember this. You are there to do and to feel and to learn.
To do what? To feel what? To learn what? Tell me when you get back.
Musical chairs is a game they play there. Know that one day you will no longer be part of the game. Know too that I am the one removing the chairs and that it could happen at any time.
You will think it is unfair, you will fight to stay.
Don’t.
Make the most of your time, and then let go.
For you the trip will seem long. For me, less than a flicker.
Still, I will miss you. And when you come home I will be waiting with the porch light on.
Beautifully said, Adrian. Thank you for the gift of your writing.
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And you are working on a similar gift. I can’t wait to read your story when it’s done.
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WOW! i’m no english major, but the POV of this piece is just so intriguing, took me a while to get it. but how cool that it never is explicitly stated. that is some INCREDIBLE WRITING! and I loved that line “forever is a sleepy place” – kinda makes the hereafter sound like a nice summer nap!!!! and hooray for the boogie woogie!!!
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Yes, you are a man who truly knows the value of the boogie woogie (also the doo-wop and the blues).
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craig, I got it quickly but wasn’t sure I could handle the bittersweet this morning. Adrian, I’m glad I did. What a perfect piece. All this time I thought there were no instructions at all, but you’ve done it. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
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It is quite nervy channeling God, but I really believe these are his intentions. The gifts he gives–even the ones that seem like gifts you would quickly return for something you like better–are what you need to come out of this life wiser.
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This is beautifully written. Would that it were.
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i don’t believe we are meant to know much about what comes before or after. We are meant to be here. But this is my hope–and my belief.
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As you say, “we are meant to be here,” which for me translates as the present, the only moment we ever have because it is enough, always. Stunning post, Adrian, suitable for singing.
Karen
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You and I have talked about this–about how strange it is that living in the present is difficult and essential, and seems to be a discovery that only comes with age.
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Amazing, Adrian. 🙂
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Thanks Shug.
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I love it. Like the best prose. It’s like a poem – it is a poem.
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To see a wonderful poem by Nathan, copy this link:
http://crankymanchronicles.blogspot.com/2012/11/home-bones.html
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Truth makes me cry. I’m snuffling into a hankie right now. Adrian, you’re AWESOME!!
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Thank you Audra. Like me, you sound like an easy-crier.
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Hi Adrian. Just read this beautiful beautiful blog to my husband. His first remark…we must share this with our Course of Miracle friends. BTW…we are also singing all your songs during our car rides…we love them. Your talent has no end…love you…Linda
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Oh, Linda–you have now seen the full extent of my talents!
Thanks for singing along with those songs. Song writing is perhaps the form of writing I most love to do.
I hope that all is well at the boarding house!
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Lovely. I’d like to repost–is that ok? (if I can figure out how to do it!) We’re skipping church today, but you’ve just given me a most beautiful prayer. Thank you.
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Reblogged this on Amma Ponders and commented:
From another blog I read. (I wish I had written it–it’s lovely.)
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I don’t know how I missed this last week. On reflection, yes I do know, but since there are no accidents, I think I was supposed to read it today, now, and I am profoundly touched. Why do I have to keep being reminded that life is now and all is good? But thank you. I’d like to share this also. I am so touched by your wisdom and insight…..and your writing.
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